42 days with Job. Day 8 and 9.

Okay, so I keep missing a day here and there, and that's why I end up combining two days, but hopefully I never end up combining three. It's tough, sometimes I feel like I physically just do not want to read the bible. As if it will cause me actual tangible pain. I know that sounds bad, and it is a very bad mentality to have, so what better way to kill it then by fighting it off in the beginning stages. So here we go.

Bildad vs. Job

...wow I just took a 30 min facebook detour. -_- a.d.d. much?

So Bildad is basically calling Job a retard and saying that he's full of hot air. He's saying the right stuff, just NOT at the right time or to the right guy in this case. What I mean by that is he's trying to instruct Job on what to do in order to make God cure him, but in Job's case God is not doing the harm, satan is. Job retaliates by saying that in his present circumstance there is really no way for him to come before God and justify his case for his iniquities to be removed. For all Job knows he could have sinned, banged his head and then forgot about the fact that he sinned....just goes to show just how much wisdom Job really had. I mean, the guy goes beyond what he sees and feels and tries to scope out the view from God's perspective. That is pretty grown up stuff, if you ask me.

"Though I were innocent, I could not answer him; I could only plead with my Judge for mercy."

Job, teach me your understanding!!! This is so ridiculously insightful. Basically Job is mapping out where we stand in the universe as human beings. Logic and reasoning may seem awry, but in retrospect we are but dusts of the earth made and formed by God's hands and breath. There is no fair and unfair for two beings of an entirely different nature. The nature of God and the nature of humans is like comparing the brain and whistling. One is complex beyond understanding and the other is an enjoyable pastime. I mean, does that make sense? Who am I to God? I'm the high pitched blowing sound of someone's lips trying to converse with an ingenious force of something that created EVERYTHING. I can't breathe.

okay. Back to Job. In chapter 9 Job gets really real. He starts talking about how there is just no way he could come before God in any such manner as to tell God or ask Him to do anything. Job is the man or what?! BUT he also starts talking about how...it's not cuz he's this "holier than thou" gangsta, but it's because in his eyes that is the way things are. Does that make sense? This is a very clear distinction. The way Job sees things is very clear compared to the way christians today see things, and by see things I mean see God. Job understands where he stands in relation to God, which is why he is so righteous and fearful of God. Job says:

"If only there were someone to arbitrate between us, to lay his hand upon us both, someone to remove God's rod from me, so that his terror would frighten me no more."

"Then I would speak up without fear of him, but as it now stands with me, I cannot."

Job feared God. Christians today don't fear God, and if they do they sure don't act like it. Take me for example. I don't live everyday in awe of God and in prayer and meditation of His word. I live most of my days doing mindless busy-body type activities...this is getting depressing. I think today is a bit hard for me to express my thoughts on blog, esp with Job smacking me upside the face telling me that I have no clue how clueless I really am.

Or maybe I'm just trying to finish this up quickly because I'm lazy. I can't even decipher between the two feelings in me. Lord save me.