shameless love

what if I could EXUDE pure love and joy in the office?

but how?....I lack the courage to speak, and when I do muster some boldness to say a word ...it's always something that doesn't make much sense or have any of the resonating effects I will them to. My actions are "kindly" but nothing outstanding. I made cupcakes and brownies, but even that felt illusory. It didn't take root from my heart, I thought it did, but after a more in depth and careful examination of my intentions I felt deluded.

my bosses are always so "busy", I want to pull them aside and tell them with ALL MY HEART that they are loved by a GREAT and PERFECT God! and then hug them and turn the office into one big party of smiles, grateful hearts, and lights.

I want to be salty.

I want to think in terms of eternity and not just the day to day.

I want to be able to love more.

I want to have courage!

I want to not be afraid of trusting.

I want to BE loved.

I want to be crazy in love with Jesus!

I want to know that I can do anything!

I want to sing without getting nervous

I want to be able to open up to people

I want to listen better, empathize better

I want to work hard for the sake of being salty rather than for money

I want to take on an adventure!

sigh, it must be that time of the month...where the truth can be suppressed no more.

this is difficult, and sort of painful to swallow, but I will keep running.

goodnight.