glorious

coffee and dash of moonlight

smooth.

though this is trying

i try not to fall asleep,
when my heart feels like it's deflated
sounds are muffled,
the melodies have instigated
that slow silent movie in slides,
this heavy contemplation hides
behind a dizzy stand still

air is at my chest
leaving me quickly
like steady underwater breaths
with every stroke I flee
to some other world where I am free
to unfold the ambitions
let go of addictions

here in this moment
I let my guard down
to not hesitate anymore
tears to make a single ant drown

Corona (코로나) - 10cm (십센치)

I don't know what they are saying besides that "today will be nice", but i love that they are in a library surrounded by books, and playing simple instruments while harmonizing. The song seems to be about something nice because the melody is kind.

good morning...

Weather forecast:

Foggy with a chance of fun!

or froggy with a chance of sun?

blank page

...

whales stay warm in the sea,

swallowed in the deep,

just like today was for me,

like tea my thoughts carelessly seep.

Thank You God for another breath to breathe.

seedling

sometimes I sing to let the noises flow,

or dance in my room just to let go

I walk down the street with my eyes closed,

breathe in the mint air and just be surrounded

I laugh at myself when no one else knows

because there are things in my head that are funny to me alone

I get thirsty easily, and drink like a fish

if I move my stomach I can hear it swish!

I get lost in books, but never in a movie

unless, perhaps, it is a documentary

days can turn to seconds,

and minutes to years,

but to me my heart still beats

as every season nears

some part of me remains unchanged

my soul deep within loves just the same

I am fragile as glass,

but wild as the wind

I move through the currents,

and pray God sends me to Him.

water(falls)

drowsy with weather

yet light as a feather,

worries reach the shore,

dissipating at the core

calm winter whispers here

soothing sounds hold me dear

falls into falls they speak to me

water hits the pane that weakened me

once before, but now restored

purely sent; quietly enamored

I lay beneath the silk of falls

catch a glimpse of the one who calls.

krej

k is for killing some part of me that I'll never get back,

R is for reminding me how much I hurt you

E is for everything I am sorry for

and

J is for me, Jamie, that I am still here breathing

I wish I was more mature back then, wish I had been more sensitive and less cold-hearted, less selfish and less afraid.

funny how life works, sometimes you get what you want, but not always when you want it.

I can only go forward.

pitifully beautiful

rain came down and washed the earth away,

water fell fast and beckoned my heart to pray

only You can love me despite myself,

make me glad and draw me to yourself

these dry bones call from the desert ground,

helpless, weary, and failure bound

Hope will rise on wings of grace,

flight beneath my good feet race

There is power in one righteous name,

Jesus' great love remains the same

courage fills my timid lungs,

with the Holy Spirit I speak in tongues

though my sins do taint my face,

and cover me with pitiful disgrace

Lord You call me to Your throne,

my eyes fall down to the unknown

then You hold me close and dear,

until grace takes over the unclear.

Silence

be still, and know that all is beyond and before you, with great consideration and tremendous love.

Japan can be saved

Today God told me He loved me.

It was a bit sudden and unexpected,

but nonetheless it calmed the raging sea;

I am lost in a hurricane undetected,

swallowed by an apathetic cloud,

Spirit's whisper percolates through the crowd

what is life?

why do we do anything?

dust to dust,
we will become,

disaster can strike at any time,

our lives are but a moment's flicker

here today, gone tomorrow

these hands hopelessly gather sorrow

...quiet these thoughts,
take a moment to pray, no take more than a moment,
this is not life, this is repetition,
this is numb,
this is forgettable.
Tied down by selfish ambition and transient desires
shifting, drifting farther away
bound by addiction with so much guilt
this travesty keeps reflecting
and my ego keeps neglecting
the call to prayer,
to pray without ceasing.

Lord You are God,
You formed me with loving hands,
You control the winds and seas,
You painted the landscape trees
Lord we forget that You are to be praised,
all of life was created for You alone to be raised
yet here we are, here I am,
living as if You were not God
forgive me for losing sight,
help me find my way back to Your light.

Thank you for your grace,
and for telling me You love me today,
please save Japan, and let that nation
praise you through this situation.

iron heart

it takes you under by a slow sweep,
knocks you down further as you weep,
this desire turns into pain,
selfish temperance ends without gain,

this is the tragedy of many men,
falling again and again and again
though you hope for light to hold,
the heart is weak and the world is cold

those that fall may stay down,
others beat the body off the ground,
the dark and secretive acts remain,
enslaving the soul like a ball and chain

who will rise up?
who can resist?
these ravenous rages do persist,

this flesh that holds a soul inside,
soft and peach yet so unkind
is a prison that holds rooted lies
shielding itself from invisible eyes

here is one who longs to be loved,

though the way to freedom is abusively shoved

unready, never right,
like a soldier unprepared to fight
courage only placed in some later time
for some other mountain or some other climb

but few are those who's hearts are pure,
filled with sin they hope for a cure,
live by faith and never let go,
are led blindly despite the darkest low

heart of iron,
despair deferred,
strength of a lion
spirit undeterred.

itd

and so it begins,
brought here to confess our sins,


sisters hands are slowly reaching,
for three days a biblical teaching

Holy Spirit pour into us,
fire like rain is a must

10 candidates, more team members
transform us all from glowing embers
to contagious winds and strong warriors,
make us see we are your daughters.

itd #1 2011.

expect the unbelievable!

I want to hold your hand

Today I was much more affectionate than usual,perhaps I was just overwhelmed by all my love that was unshared,

it just spilled over and I wanted to hold hands with everyone,

I kept hugging the backs of all the girls at church and stroking their hair,

kissing babies, and crying with my sisters in Christ while praying.

God's love is sufficient enough for me.

let your light shine

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Marianne Williamson

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I desire to be a'light.

I need to be rescued

I called,

and You answered...

and You came to my rescue

I want to be where You are.

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there are too many strange things in this world to contemplate,

I need eyes that see and ears that hear.

Why can't I realize you calm the raging seas?

Why must I always turn away from what You want from me?

Truth be told I am still holding on to myself, unable to let go in order for You to use me for Your kingdom... Help me to have a bigger faith!

famous first words

...be yourself.

woman behold your son!

called to love one another, without abandonment.